If you don't like me for who I am... good for you!

I have been trying to write this post for a while now and finally decided to just buckle down and post it. and here you go.

I have been thinking about why people judge one another. I normally don't post post like this but it has been on my mind and I have told myself to treat my blog like a journal so if you don't agree with what I say oh well.

Many people judge someone by just looking at them. They see what they look like or what they are doing and judge right away. I am not saying I don't do this because we all do. But what I am asking is why do we do that? Should it matter on what we look like or what we do?

I think to a point you have to judge people from what they look like or what they are doing but that doesn't mean you shouldn't get to know them. I know someone that I thought was very nice when I first met them and then when I got to know them well, that person wasn't the person I wanted to be around. The person made me feel bad about myself and made me feel like they had a harder life than me when I tried to express how I was having a hard time with something. They normally said 'oh well I have this problem that is worse'. My first judgement of that person was nice and kind and then it turned to be mean and plain annoying. I couldn't be myself around them because I kept on worrying about what they were going to say and what they thought or how they had it worser off.

I don't think that judging people is a bad thing but it is when you judge and judge and judge everyone for every little thing they do. The other day I went to a baseball game where a special needs person was sitting behind me. She was yelling rooting for her team. I was thinking that people would probably be annoyed with what she was doing because she did yell for her team a lot. But I told myself why should they judge. What makes them have the authority to judge her. She is just doing something she loves and being herself.

I know that I have been judged in my life. And now it has affected the way I am today to an extent. People probably still judge me today. I am now to at a point in my life where I just don't care what people think. I am going to be myself and if you don't like me for who I am than good for you. I wish I had that attitude when I was growing up. Oh life would have been so much easier!

High school was probably some of the hardest years yet. I am dyslexic and didn't learn like "normal" kids did. I had to work my butt off to get the grades I did. My geometry teacher judge me. I told here I was having a hard time with a concept and wanted to get help so I can understand it before I took the final. She than told me that I wasn't going to pass the class so I shouldn't even try. First off, what teacher would say that to their student. Second off, that just pushed me to try harder. It was hard to really study since I was "going to fail anyways". I made sure that teacher didn't make me fail in life. I have problems learning but really I still know how to learn it is just different. I think to myself that sometimes by her saying that made me want to prove her wrong. I have now gotten my Associates Degree in interior design and also have tutor numerous of students that struggle with school.

I wasn't just judged in my classes, I was also judge outside of class. But what high school student wasn't? In high school there are clicks and groups that are labeled. If you weren't popular you couldn't hang out with the popular crowd...etc. I had a good group of friends that I hanged out with since I was in 5th grade. We were the best of friends. Then my junior year they started to make some decisions that wasn't me and I didn't want to be apart of. So I told them that I didn't want to do that if they are going to do that I don't want to be their friend because I don't want to surround myself with that sort of things. I am not saying this was easy for me because it wasn't. I had the hardest time telling my friends that I have been friends with for years that I didn't want to be friends with them anymore if they were going to do those type of things. They made my life even harder after that. But I just turned my back and took what they were "throwing" my way. I then made different friends and had a great year with people that had the same standards as me. This experience made me stronger. It made me realize that you don't have to fit in to have friends.

When Casey and I got engaged and married I was 18 years old. People told me why are you getting married so young. They talked to each other and said there must be a reason why they are getting married this young. Wanna know the reason?! It is because we are each other soul mates and we love each other. Still today when I tell someone that I got married when I was 18 or I tell them that I am 21 have been married for 3 years and have a 16 month old they have this look on their face.

I am not trying to say feel sorry for me because my life has been hard. What I am saying is that when people judge us or make our life hard because we are "different" or do things a different way it shouldn't matter. That is why I wanted to write this post. I am realizing that it shouldn't matter if someone thinks I am weird or thinks I shouldn't be doing what I am doing or thinks differently than me.

We should express how we feel about something and not worry about not doing something because we think someone will judge us. It just shouldn't matter. You really just need to do what you want and say what you want and if someone wants to de-friend you on Facebook because of that, good for them.

Dr. Seuss said "Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind".

Heavenly Father has created us and sent us down to earth to get our own body and be ourselves. Heavenly Father loves me for who I am and he will never judge me. So I am going to be myself.

Like I said, if you don't like me for who I am... good for you!