Introducing...

Walker Daniel Schroeder

Born March 12, 2012

at 11:23 pm

7 lbs 8 oz

19 inches long

♥ The Schroeders

I am ready.

This past week has been hard for me. I have been trying to get everything done that I wanted to get done before our little guy comes into the work but I just didn't have the energy to get it done because I have been so overwhelmed with everything that is going on with school and life. Casey noticed that I was getting really overwhelmed and I just couldn't take it anymore. Since I was so overwhelmed I just broke down and I couldn't do much. I didn't have any motivation to get anything done. I was having a hard time getting through my classes and getting the homework that I needed to get done. Casey helped me out getting some of the things done. Once the house was cleaner I was able to get a little more motivated. I finally got everything done that I wanted to get done. The apartment is clean, the cat is groomed, clothes are clean, bag is packed and in the car, car seat is installed, and his outfit is picked out. Now that everything is ready except for our little guy it is hard for me to not want to just go into labor so he will be able to come into the world. I know that he will come on his own time but I am just sick of waiting to meet him. I have been waiting for 9 months now. Isn't that long enough? Well he will come when he comes and I can't wait for that day.

Even though that I can't wait to give birth to my son, I am getting very nervous about the whole labor part. Sometimes I wish that it was like in the movies where a bird came and dropped him off at my doorstep in a little basket, but I know that it will be okay. I am just so nervous about it. I have been having contractions that are pretty strong but they aren't consistant. The last for like 30 to 40 seconds and are about 5 to 6 minutes apart for about an hour but then they stop for a while and return in like 3 ish hours. So if you couldn't tell, I am getting annoyed with them. I just want my water to break so I can go to the hospital and give birth to this baby of mine. But then when I am having those contractions I get so nervous that I sometimes say I don't know if I will be able to do this.. I know I can and I will be able to. Now it is back to the waiting for this little guy to be ready and join casey and I.

♥ The Schroeder

The waiting game sucks!

Well I am now full term and could have little w anytime. All I have to do is wait. And to tell you the truth it sucks. My bag is pack, clothes are washed, car seat is in the car, and I am mentally ready. But I still have to wait until my body puts itself into labor. I don't have much patiences when it comes to stuff like this. Meaning I don't have patience when I know something is going to happen but I just don't know when. So pretty much the waiting game sucks! I am ready. I know that I should enjoy the sleep and time with just Casey and I while I can but to be honest I am ready for little w to come into our lives. I am ready to have someone with me all day every day. I don't like being alone. I am ready to have a little guy to love unconditionally. I am ready. I sometimes wish I could just pray to Heavenly Father and ask him to put me into labor. But I know that won't work because he has a plan for everything and that might not be his plan yet. But I really just want to meet the little guy. I am really anxious to see what he looks like, be able to hold him, and to be a mommy to him. Why can't he come already? Haven't I been pregnant for long enough?! I think so. I just want to be able to hold and meet my son!

Well hopefully the time will go by fast and I will be able to meet and hold him soon.

I am defiantly a sheep...

1. taken by casey. 32 weeks.
2. Little W @ 33 weeks. healthy baby.
growing great. weighs about 4 lbs 12 oz.

Casey one day told me that this year is the year of the dragon. He was born in the year of the dragon and now our son will be as well. We then looked up what animal I was. I was born in the year of the sheep. We then went on and looks up what characteristics a dragon and a sheep had. A sheep is someone who worries and stresses over a lot. (which is just like me).

My life is great but I think I am going insane sometimes because I have so much going on. I know that it is half because I am pregnant and I have baby brain but it is also because I am starting to stress out about many things.

1. Graduating. I have so much to do before little W comes into our life. One thing is to get most if not all of my portfolio done. This is a problem for me because I am having a hard time finding the motivation to do the work. I want to do all of these projects but half of me just doesn't have the energy or motivation to do. I have all of these ideas but I just can't kick myself in my butt and do it. Example of this is right now. I am at school waiting for Casey to get out of this night class so we can go home. I should be doing homework but instead I have been looking at blogs and now writing this post. I know that I am able to do it but all I want to do right now is spend time with Casey just relaxing and wishing that I could hold little W. (sidenote: I am so excited to be able to hold this little guy in my arms and be able to be with him and take cute little pictures of him.)

2. Becoming a parent. Becoming a parent is a very big deal. I sometimes ask myself, "am I really ready for this?" well do you know what... there is no going back now. I am going to be a mommy in 4 to 6 weeks. I have been thinking about all the things that I am going to have to do before he even gets here. and then all of the things that I have to do once he gets here. I know that no one is ready to become a parent, it comes with time but it is still something that I am stressing about.

3. My pregnancy. I am done mentally and physically. I wish that I could just be done being pregnant. Lately, I have been having a horrible time sleeping just because I am not comfortable and once I find a comfortable position I have to get up and go pee. Another thing is that I have been having bad back pain. Sometimes it hurts so bad that I just can't move (well I feel that way). I sometimes even feel like I am a really big person because it is hard for me to move around and get up.

Story: One day Casey and I were just on the couch watching some tv. I got up to throw something away. note the trash can is about 5 to 7 steps away from the couch. Once I got up and walked over to the trash can then walked over back to the couch and sat down, I was out of breath. I was breathing hard. Casey turns to me and said, "was it really that difficult to walk over to trash can the throw something away?" I responded with a "yes" and a "duh" look on my face. 

I also feel loop-sided. I lose my balance multiple times a day. I know it is because I have a big belly in the front and nothing (emphasis on nothing) in the back to balance it out. I worried that something isn't right. I have been having dreams that I lose the baby. So that makes me even more worried. But I know that everything is fine. He is a healthy baby. He is growing great. I am doing great and gaining more weight, which is good since I lost so much. I am having normal pregnancy symptoms. I am growing at a great rate. Everything is great. My doctor actually said when I went in last that I am regular.! So yippie for that.

 I am glad that I am about to be pregnant and this last bit of my pregnancy is NOT like my first bit. I am glad that I am pregnant with a healthy little boy. I am glad that I am able to get pregnant. and I am glad that I am pregnant with an amazing husband that is trying so hard to understand everything that goes on when your pregnant and is understanding when I am going insane. He is very loving to me and I can't wait to see him hold our son for the first time. (I might cry, I almost cry just thinking about it.) He is going to be an amazing daddy just like he is an amazing husband!

To sum it up. I know that I am going insane and I am really stressed but if I think about my future and how I am going to be a mom to an amazing little boy that I made with my amazing husband nothing else matters. I just am praying for the best for him and that is all I want.

♥ The Schroeder

The time is getting closer..!

It is getting closer and closer to March. January is half way over already. We just finished our first week back to school for our last semester at the LDSBC. I am starting to really buckle down and get my portfolio done before this little guy of our arrives. It is just 7 to 9 weeks away. We are getting more and more excited to be parents and to meet our son.! I am starting to think about everything that we need to get and do before he gets here. I feel like I have all the time in the world but when I really think about it, the time that I do have will just fly by and sooner than I know it, I will be a mommy and Casey will be a daddy! I will have a little boy in my life that I will love with all my heart and more. Oh goodness, I think it is really starting to hit me that I will be a parent to a son. He has been moving all the time inside of me and I am loving the feeling, but it makes me just that more excited to be able to hold him and just let him fall asleep in my arms. I just can't wait! On the 23rd of January, I will be getting an ultrasound to make sure he is growing great and healthy, and I just can't wait to be able to see him again. Even though I won't be able to see what he really looks like and physically hold him, I still can't wait to be able to see him move on the screen and see how he is doing. Oh I am just so excited! :]

♥ The Schroeder

Christmas and New Years.

I know it is way past Christmas and New Years, but I finally got around to posting about it.

Casey and I both had to work so we didn't get to go anywhere for Christmas but we were okay with it. It was hard for me to not be by my parents or by family. We spent our second Christmas together just us two. We both said that it will be the last Christmas that we would be able to do that since we will be having a little guy join us in 8 to 10 weeks. We lucked out and only had to work the first part of the week before Christmas, so we decided to go up to Bear Lake and see my sister and her family for a couple days. We got back Christmas eve day and joined Casey's cousin's for a party that night. We then went to temple square on Christmas eve.

Christmas Day we woke up in the morning and opened presents at 7 in the morning because I am like a little girl when it comes to Christmas morning and wakes up at the crack of dawn to open presents still at the age of 20. I actually woke up at 3:30am (which is because I had to use the bathroom) and turned over to Casey and asked if we could open presents then and he said "no santa hasn't came yet." I think he just wanted to sleep more, so we went back to sleep and waited until 7:00am to get out of bed to open presents. Casey was very good to me this year. He got me everything that I asked for and even more. Even though everything was little that we got for each other it was a very great Christmas. We spent the rest of the morning just relaxing with each other watching the Disney Parade. We then went to church to celebrate the true meaning of Christmas. When we got home from Church we facetimed with Casey's family and my parents. Then we started to cook our Christmas dinner. It was the first time that Casey and I cooked a Ham and Yams so it was fun trying to figure everything out. It turned out great! :]

New Years Eve we celebrated it at Casey's cousin's. It was fun being around family. We went home around 10:30 and just chilled with one another until midnight! I get tired very easily so I feel asleep at 11:30 but Casey made sure to wake me up at midnight to say Happy New Years and give me a kiss. He is such a sweet husband! On New Years day we just relaxed with each other and just spent the day together. Nothing to big, just a relaxed holiday.

For our last week of break my parents were in town for my uncle's funeral. It was great being able to see him and the rest of the family. The smith's are in our prayers and thoughts. We love them very much. While my parents were in town we just spent time with them. It was great to see my mom and dad while I was pregnant with a belly. They got to feel our little guy kick, even though he didn't kick as much as he usually does because I was on the move and wasn't just relaxing at home. I loved having them here and hate to see them leave. The next time I will see them I will be having a baby or I will have a baby! It is crazy to think that I am going to be a mommy in 8 to 10 weeks. I am way excited but getting nervous at the same time. Casey and I both can't wait to meet our little guy, we are way excited to be parents are start this new chapter in our lives.

Well this break has been filled with adventures and fun times. We start school on monday. I am semi ready for it. It was my last day of work at Staples yesterday and now I am going to be a tutor for interior design at the school for this semester. I haven't really done as much as I wanted to get done with my portfolio and other things that I wanted to get done this break but I sure did get to spend lots of time with my family and with my amazing husband! Well now it is school time.. our last semester at LDSBC and in Utah! Yippie!! We are ready to be back in California, closer to the family! :]

♥ The Schroeder

Whats going on..!

So I have decided that life is crazy! School is out for the semester which means 3 weeks off! Well for me that means 3 weeks of trying to get ahead on my portfolio so I can finish it before baby Schroeder comes.!  Casey is working more since it is the holiday season, which is nice and not so nice at the same time. Nice because we get money and not so nice because I want to send time with him. I am only working about twice a week because I get to stressed when I work and am trying to get everything done that I want to get done. I put my notice in to stop working which will be on January 7th. I am quitting early because (1) I have school everyday next semester so it would be hard for me to work anyways (2) it is getting strenuous on my body bending over and standing all the time and (3) I need to focus on getting my portfolio done and put all my extra time that I have into that.

Lately, pregnancy wise, I have been doing good. I have been dealing with heartburn at night where sometimes I have to sleep sitting up, which is so not comfortable. I also have been having really bad cramps in my right leg. My doctor said that is it normal so I am not worried about it, just loving all of the fun things about being pregnant. Since I am 28 weeks pregnant that means that I am in my third trimester! That means that I will be have this child of mine very soon and it is going to come sooner than I think! So I have been starting to think of all the things I need to do and get before he comes! I am very excited to finally meet him and see what he looks like and how he is and his personality. I can't wait! Since it is the Christmas season, I have been seeing all of these cute little outfits for Christmas and I just want to buy them but I know he won't be here for Christmas so I don't. Next year I will defiantly be buying some though.

Me at about 25 weeks

Me at 27 Weeks

Baby Schroeder 26 Weeks

I am starting to sort through all the clothes that I do have for him and putting them into piles of what size they are and whatnot. My sister also gave me tons of her baby boy clothes that she has as well, which we are very grateful for. I know Casey is very grateful for it because that means he can say no to me when I ask if we can buy some clothes for the little guy because we have tons, but I still want more. I don't fit in most of my regular clothes now, which is exciting because that means I am growing! It is getting colder outside and since I have this belly that sticks out I don't fit in most of my winter jackets. So casey and I went to get me a new one and we got a deal! We went to old navy and got this jacket which is normally $90 for $26! Ya amazing deal! Go us! and It is super cute! I love it!

New Jacket

I am just weighing my normal weight but is sure I will be gaining more this next trimester and be getting bigger as well. I do feel like I am huge but I know that I will just be getting bigger. The other day at work someone asked me how far along I was and I told him I was 7 months and they said you are tiny for 7 months. I just laughed.

Because of the lovely pinterest, I have found some DIY stuff that I want to do for our little guy. This past weekend I went to Joann's and got everything that I needed to do it. I am going to make this diaper strap as well as some ties that you sew onto a onsie. I am so excited to do them, but I hope they turn out since I am not the most amazing sewer ever. I will put up the final product once I finish them. But here is a picture of what they are suppose to be like and the fabric I will be using.

Both fabrics are going to be ties.
The baseball fabric is also going to be used for the diaper strap. 

Well that is all that is going on here. Just getting ready for our little guy to come and getting ahead on school work. Fun stuff!

♥ The Schroeder